←

* DONALD EVANS * AMSTERDAM

late Thursday

Dear Renaud, Happy with your letter which I read today, walking. ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ mail on my ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ -- ~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~~ (~~~~~~~~) ; ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ our reunion (!) ~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~... ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ ; ~~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ hours together before. ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ as I usually ~~~--~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ rest of the ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~-~~~~~~~~~~~~~. But at least ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~-~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~/~~~~~~ later the Dutch ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~... ~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~. ~~. ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ next day all ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~. ~~~ dealers here, upon ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~: “~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ if she wants ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~”...~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~--~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ garceless way it ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~. ~~~, ~~~ ~~’~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~ her warmth of ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~: ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ gallery, Galerie Germain ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~--~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ a heavyweight gallery, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~...~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ (~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~-~~~-~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ and therefore ideals) “~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~?” ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ I. S. over ~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ admire and look ~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~. ~~., ~~~~ glamour can be ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~... ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~’~~ ~~~~~~~~--~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ my work, but ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ do it, before ~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~.~~. ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ invited to make ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~-~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ one large room, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~; ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~-~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~ ~~ small, progressive and ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ the offer--she says ~~~’~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~, went to the ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ my previous stay. ~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~ a man I ~~~~~--~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~-~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ the corner of ~~ ~~~~-~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~--~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ goddam patient in ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ me up to ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ shop behind the ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ “~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~” ; ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ had a look--I’ve ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~--~~~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~. ~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~ permanent brain damage. ~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~: ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ goes under to ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ under water for ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ walk into a ~~~~~~ ~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~...  

Perhaps ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ lung to you ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~-~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~: ~~ ~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~--~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~--~~~~ ~~~~~~ it was necessary ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~! ~~~~ see, this july ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ was slow. So ~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~~~ “~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~” ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ discover the cause ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~-~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ into the heart ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~-~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ made through catheters ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~ shaving of the ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ the inside of ~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~; ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ up the artery ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~ it was something ~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~ malformed right lung: ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~’~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ (~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ years ago) it ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~; ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ to remove this ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ I [it ?]works ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ considered “normal” after ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ “~~~~~~~” ~~~~. ~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ scar perhaps half ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~ serious operation because ~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~; ~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~  ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~~ ~~ am assured it ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~ manage without bearing ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~. ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ far.

I’ve ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ my head to ~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ spare you my ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~. ~~’~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~, now. And that ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ well.

With ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ Donald.

Cher ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~’~~~ lue aujourd’hui en ~~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ — ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~ promener, m’occuper de ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ (~~~~~~~~); ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (!) ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~... ~~’~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ voyage avec un ~~~~ ; ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ que de me ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~--~~~~~ ~~~ devient plus mystérieux ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~’~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~-~~~~~~ sont toujours tatouées, ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~~~ au moins mes ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~’~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ isolement néerlandais. Quelques ~~~~~~/~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~   ~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~... ~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~’~~.~~. est une déception, ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~’~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ à nos affaires ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~, ~~’~~~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~’~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ n’avoir plus aucun ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~: “~~’~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~”... ~~~ renvoi de la ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~--~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~~~ [~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ?]~~~ façon désagréable dont ~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~~ possible, mais après ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~ journée d’hier a ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ : ~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ VEULENT exposer la ~~~~~~~~--~~’~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~-~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~...~~~~~~ ~~~ viens de l’écrire ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ (~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ la misère à ~~~ ~~~~~~~~) “~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ?”, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ à ma préférence ~~~~~ ~~. ~~. ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ confiance et d’accès ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ je pourrais espérer ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~.~~., ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~... ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ seule grosse pointure ~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ — ~~’~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ d’abord voir Ileana ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~  ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ faire , avant ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~. G.  Hier j’ai ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~-~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~’~~~ accepté. On me ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~; ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ musée en même ~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~’~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~-~~~~~~, ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~ jamais vu. Ma ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~--~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~’~~~~ ~~~~~. Après ça je ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~, et ensuite à ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~~, en marchant le ~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ une homme que ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~--~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ mieux et le ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~.  ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~--~~~~~~~ ~~~~-~~~~~, ~~~~~~~ ~~~ store, contre le ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ section, qui avait ~~’~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ faire attention. Les ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~ “~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~”;  à la maison ~~’~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~--~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~--~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~-~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~ me sens plutôt ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ en avoir assez ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ; ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~-~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ céder sous l’effet ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~’~~~ ~~’~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~~ de marcher sous ~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ en plein dans ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~. ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~ ~~ Paris...

Peut-être ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ à mon poumon ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~-~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~-~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ : on m’a fait ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~--~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~--~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ et tendres. Un ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ! ~~~~~-~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ une pneumonie aiguë, ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~, ~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ un an seulement ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~’~~~~ “~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~” ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ a été établie ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ poumon d’une solution ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~’~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~. ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ qui a été ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~’~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~ l’abdomen, du bas-ventre, ~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ cuisse, là où ~~’~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ; ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ l’artère jusqu’au cœur. ~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ chose que je ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~’~~~ une malformation du ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~: ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~’~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~’~~~ ~~ a eu infection (~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~ ~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~), ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~; ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ peut-être soignée, GUÉRIE, ~~~~~~~-~~~~, ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~. ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~ ~~~ trop je ne ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~ fait le reste, ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ “~~~~~~~” ~~~~~~ ~~~ aura été enlevé, ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ “~~~~~~~” ~~ ~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ une cicatrice peut-être ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~’~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~. ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~ que c’est une ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ; ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ on m’assure que ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~. ~~~~~~, ~~’~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ que je pouvais ~~’~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~. ~~’~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ bientôt.

Et ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ machine à écrire ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~’~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~ page. Je suis ~~~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~, ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ ~~’~~~ ~~~~~~~ ~~~ bien.

Avec l’affection de Donald.

Enveloppe ~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~. ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~-~~-~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~. Flamme, six lignes ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~. ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~ ~~ ~~~~~~~ : ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ 1973. Au ~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~ rouge, de la ~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ : Donald Evans. ~~ ~~’~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ :

Renaud Camus

    ~~~ ~~~~ ~~~ Bac

    75007 PARIS

    Frankrijk

Un ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ × ~~~, ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~-~~~~~~. ~~~-~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~, de forme circulaire. ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~, ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~’~~~~~~ noire. 

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